2006-04-29 - 12:24 a.m.

how can you tell if someone likes you? this guy is all of a sudden telling me that he has feelings for a guy. he is straight but he has been curious lately. i didn't ask anything and he kept asking if i was ok with what i he was telling me. which is weird because i'm openly gay so i wouldn't have any problem with gay crushes. he then told me that the feelings for this guy were strong enough to perhaps explore them. now i know that doesn't mean that he was talking about me but he continued to be concerned with my lack of reaction and told me that i knew that he doesn't care about the physical and wanted me to re-affirm that i knew what he was saying. feel so weird about it. he's not a friend but i do see him on a regular basis. anyway, just wanted to write this down.

i was fine with him before. i did have the usual crush but i got over it. i had realized how ridiculous i was being and just got over it. i did question his sexuality before so that was enabling me to have that crush. it helped to get over him when i confirmed that he is straight. now, he is questioning that and it's making me feel uncomfortable with his semi-cryptic chat about feelings for a guy.

this sucks.

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