2006-03-30 - 1:06 a.m.

i found henry on myspace. he created a new account once more like i predicted. we both had been pretending to be friends after he and the others got me fired. soon after me, he was fired. i am ready to finally let go of that perticular time of my life but not before i put some fear in him. before yesterday in the short time when we were fake friends, i kinda convinced him that i got him fired. then about two weeks ago when i called for the last time he again had me call him back. of course, i knew that he would not answer the phone, or his sister like she usually does, but i tried anyway. all i wanted from him that day was closure; for him to tell me that he did not want to speak to me. two days ago, i found him online and told him that i knew that we were not friends and that there was no need for him to lie to me. i laid the fear in him by also rejecting his apology for getting me fired. the bastard had the boldness to continue to lie to me by emailing me some half-assed explanation. all the bitterness and anger helped me to escape the melancholy i was experiencing. there has to be an alternative to anger as a way to lessen the effects of angst. in my message to him, i reminded him that i explored his manhood. yes, it sucks to be me..or was it that i plain "sucked?"

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