2002-05-05 - 10:38 p.m.

beloved,

oh so much to tell.

yesterday i finally went to pic n save to check my schedule. theodore did not give me the weekends as i wished so i may work at ritz and pic n save. i expected as much. i guess deep inside i knew that i was not going to go back even if he had given in. i gave my letter of resignation and said goodbye to whom ever was there. saying goodbye to diana was hard. i will really miss her. but i shall try to visit.

however, i already can see i will not. it's odd to actually feel pain over leaving such a place where i felt pain everyday anyway.

so far ritz has been okay. i don't want to stay there either. i will most likely stay there for six months and move on.

today...well today i felt okay.

i do want to throw up because i feel like i ate too much... i want to be bulimic or anarexic.

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